BELOVED SON
Trying to believe it, and live from it, minute-by-minute.
All life, all love, flows from connection with God. This intimacy is violently opposed by the one who would rather we not experience it, much less live to tell about it. As I traverse life, grounding my core and trusting in Belovedness, is how I hope to live and share the abundant Life Jesus offered.
I once believed that believing in God required me to commit intellectual suicide. In my existential angst, I deconstructed the Big Bang to a fluke chance and that nothing, or no one, created the existence we perceive. Through a long and ongoing journey I have come to believe in a personal and unconditionally loving creator. I follow Jesus and his perception of God as Loving Father (and Mother). I am convinced he allowed himself to be tortured for me, personally. I believe he stepped in front of a machete for me, to show me "that the greatest love of all is to give up one's life for one's friend."
I believe Jesus is my friend and that the spirit of God that lives in him, me, and all of us, guides us on an individualized adventure of communal loving sacrifice. Everyday, I pray I digest the words "I love you buddy" and allow the tender gaze of God to rest upon me. In so doing, the wounding messages collected throughout life can be healed by facing them with God.
When I believe in my true belovedness and the awesome power of the Love of God, true Love, that Is God, I trust them to do anything. Seldom do I not put constraints on that trust, which is barely trust. I pray I find more wounded-healers, warriors, sojourners, who can radically help each other trust radically, watching God show up in the most miraculous of ways.
Many relationships, experiences, and content has led to my convincing and growing. Will share in later posts. What keeps you growing more closely connected to God day-by-day?
